9daysofescapism

Ok I'm shallow..... But...

SSH IS SUPER GOODLOOKING!

OKAY! I have ONE MORE PAPER LEFT ON THURS! Meanwhile, I must say tt I didnt really study alot. Like THE subj which I studied alot in the end I didnt have time to finish. As for those which I didnt study alot of cus have time to finish cus NOTHING TO WRITE actually. Gah. And I got this strong feeling I will fail / get zero for the pp which I think I'm going to S/U it. Ah well, as expected... Ok my thurs pp actually cant study lah. So i really feel like just suan le den slack for the next few days budden I sure feel guilty 1 lah! Budden erm I'm going to watch like 1 disc today & tmr. One disc okay right?? Like Mon to Wed den study lorrrrrrrrr. HAHA! 自欺欺人. Ok la see how budden I 99.9% will watch 1 epi ltr. HAHA! (though I alr more or less know the WHOLE story liao...) And erm why am I blogging in one whole big chunk of paraaaaa! T__T
Anw my thurs pp is my most feared de. SIGHHHHH!

Okay anw, the purpose of this entry is to intro some VERY nice songs I like recently.

Korean version of 红豆，告白. OK i dunnoe the singers but it's super nice...

心酸，说谎，感同身受，耳朵，唐人街，另一个自己 by Yoga! Have been repeating these songs over and over again. Plus his previous album songs very nice also. LOL!
画沙 is not bad. HAHA! Of cus because of JAY!

Finally a one wk break. Well well, today's the slackish day I've ever had since sch started seriously. I went out since 10am to 11+pm...
Went to meet the people I missed sooooo much! Great to see all of them again, though I can feel some sense of emo-ness. HAHA! I realised i should re-name myself as emo. I always emo at the wrong timing. Dunnoe why. anw, i really miss them alot. and i really wanna spend more time w them. sigh. nostalgic feeling. sighhhhhhhh.

Anw aft went to watch some stuffs which made me so huai nian the past. sigh. nostalgic feeling agn. giving up an instrument learnt for 9yrs.. wad a waste man. sigh. and i miss the times we endured as a team. though i used to dislike it. but.. sigh.. sigh. sigh. today is a sigh day.

Wow can you believe it? Mic is still awake at 11.35pm! Last week, I slept at 1++am for 2 consecutive days due to projects! My goodness man. If you know Mic, you will know that she diligently sleeps @ 10pm everyday since secondary (or maybe even primary, who knows), so it's totally a PAIN for her. HAIS! no choice. Must get used to this type of life. And CCA ends close to 10pm every Wed too. Yeah so my wed = super long day that starts from 8am and ends at 11+pm cus by the time I reached home it's tt timing?! Nice isn't it?



Loads of projects ( i don't know why the modules I take have sooooo many projects, my frens' modules have none?! ) . On top of that term papers, and READINGS. omg man readings is the WORST amongst all I think. If you uds the reading and enjoy the reading den hai hao. But sometimes even after reading over and over agn you still cant get it. Such a waste of time man. Ohhhhhh my gooodness! And the worst thing is, there's NO ANSWERS! :(
 

The past few days have been a turmoil for me, for my timetable is really far away from my ideal one. and i have to find groups to "slot myself into" when i dunnoe anybody in the class at all. But today, I'm ok alr. I must learn to take things in my stride and not assume people thinks the same way as I am. Although there are loads of things to be done, loads of really chim things to be read, I must learn to enjoy what I'm reading, then it won't be that tong ku. Also, I must stop grumbling and pulling a long face and in this way I'lll probably live happier. So far, (as of two wks since sch reopens), I like most of my modules la. As in i think quite fun and interesting. =x though the readings really make me peng... like dun understand.. but ok.. i must try harder.

Another reason why I'm not depressed now is of cus, what motivates me since pri 6 la. HAHA! It's sooo nice to just see his news and stuffs about him. really cheered me up greatly. :) JY power~~~!





Lastly, 加油 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have this sudden "feel" for swings these few days. I dunnoe why. i think it's because after watching the 萧敬腾's 善男信女's mv. Then there's this part where the male character and the female character were on the swings. Up and down, they were laughing happily. The next scene, only the female character was left swinging up and down. The other swing is empty.
I just think it's kinda emo. Like got this 物是人非 feel. Like, good times/happiness doesnt last, no matter how hard we want them to be. Haha. Dunnoe why, I have this empty feeling since today. =x i think is pre-school syndrome. Cus I can alr forsee what my life will be like............ I damn scared can. 害怕，恐惧，胡思乱想。:(


Really like the following lyrics alot..

如果有一天 我们再见面
时间会不会倒退一点
也许我们都忽略
互相伤害之外的感觉
如果哪一天 我们都发现
好聚好散不过是种遮掩
如果我们没发现
就给彼此多一点时间
 

I've been complaining and grumbling non stop since Mon! I hate it man. I hate this type of me, but I can't help it.

Everytime I'm in a dilemma, I think of the archie story I read when I was young.

Archie did not know whether to go out with betty or veronica, so he asked his father what should he do.
His father replied him that when he was young, he faced similar problems as him, so he went to consult the ice caps.
Archie was puzzled, but he did as suggested by his father, to visit the mountains that day.
The next day, his problem was solved because he was ill and he did not have to make a decision about who to go out with.

sometimes, i really wished i was him. because i dunnoe what to do tmr. where i should go. what i should do. and the implications involved. damn.


really depressed. i think it's because i'm not used to this type of life. waking up at 6+, travelling for close to 3hrs on the road to and fro, etc, etc. For TEN MONTHS, i haven't been doing all these. I guess that's why i'm rambling non stop. I just hope I will be okay soon. :( becus I'm really unhappy.
 

Be optimistic;
Stop sighing;
Stop letting her brain rot;
Get back her memory skills;
Stop commenting on things she shouldnt comment on and sound like a bad girl;
Learn to be independent;
Open her eyes wider and read things properly so that she doesnt end up lost;
Stop being paranoid;

Okay. HAHA! But i'm sooo happy today! Because my album arrived :D I'm sooo glad I bought it from tw cus I dont think sg will sell in the near future. =) It's really nice! The necklace is nice & the whole album is soooo damn nice! It's like the normal version already damn nice liao. Then this version is like 10 times nicer! LOL!



 

AND I feel damn ashamed of myself. I dunnoe what's complex number anymore! oh gawd. I think I'm dead leh. like jc stuffs and sec sch stuffs clean forgottened!!!!!!!!!! Like 99.9 percent forgottened! OH MY! Okok. maybe I shall not choose math modules. SIGH!



Dreading thurs. Dreading every single day. LOL.